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    Brainatarian by Nikko Lee

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    Contains Boson's Mate by Nikko Lee

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Division of Labor and Gender Roles

I grew up on a farm where a pair of hands was a pair of hands regardless of gender. Throughout my university studies, there was little if any differential treatment of the men and women in my field of study. There were often more woman who stayed in karate throughout the years until the black belt level. I feel lucky to have grown up in a relatively gender neutral environment.

Still there were a few differences. I never learned to use a chainsaw even though my brother did. While there were a lot of women in my undergraduate classes, the numbers dropped off beyond graduate school. There were far more men with black belts than women in most of the clubs I studied in.

Since becoming a mother, I've given serious thought to division of labor and its influence on gender roles.

It started when I got pregnant. I was tired and nauseated so much in the first trimester that I didn't have the energy to do anything but hold down the couch after work. By the time I crossed into the third trimester, picking up cut wood for 15 minutes in the sun was my limit. As I could no longer help my husband in a meaningful fashion with the outdoors work around the house, I took on more of the cooking and indoor cleaning.

Then the little Bean came along and my primary role became big milk machine. It was a job uniquely tailored to me. My husband helped bottle feed the Bean for the 2 months I exclusively pump and when I am away.

I am among the frugal mother who thought the free cost of breastfeeding - along with the health benefits - made it the obvious choice over formula. But breastfeeding does have a cost. It limits how much I can be away from my Bean and still maintain my supply. By default, I tend to take on most of the diaper changing and entertaining the Bean. My husband does those things as well, but on balance I am just there more. Even though I returned to work at 12 weeks postpartum, I still get up 2-3 times a night to feed the Bean.

With home improvements on the horizon, I'm looking at my ability to participate in a whole new light. I don't know how to install cedar singles. I've never re-routed plumbing. From a practical view, my former carpenter husband is better suited for accomplishing these jobs. Since someone needs to be watching the Bean, I have become the default babysitter.

It's not a role I begrudge. There are benefits. I see so many smiles and giggles as well as firsts. I also see a lot of poopy diapers, crying fits and struggle to make the most of my time while providing my daughter the interaction she needs. As long as I am breastfeeding, my place will be near her.

I try to remember it won't be for long and that I have other roles - scientific curator, author, outdoor enthusiast. I knew motherhood would change how I defined myself, I just didn't realize it would include roles that I don't want to be defined by.


Getting ready for the Maine Crime Wave

The official start to spring has come and gone. Yes, there's still snow on the ground. It's actually snowing as I type. We've pulled out the baby carrier for hiking. Brin is just about big enough to sit in it. As we pass from one season into the next, my thoughts turn back to writing.

Progress on Safe Word edits remains slow and steady. The manuscript needs so much work, but the frame work of a story I want to tell is there. Details need to be added. Characters need to be developed. The action needs to be tightened. But there is a story there.

In less that a week I will be heading down to Portland for the Maine Crime Wave. I went last year and had an amazing time. It's a great opportunity to meet published authors and people who love writing about crime. I don't have a manuscript to pitch other than in concept. Wolf Creek won't be released until September, so I can't really do much marketing for it. Besides it is an LGBT urban fantasy. So what do I hope to accomplish?

First and foremost is always meetings people who love writing. I even printed out some business cards this year to hand out. I'm horrible when it comes to networking, but it's great to have something to give people who ask about my writing or my website.

Second is to keep developing my writing skills. There are some great authors speaking. I even signed up for 15 minutes with an agent so I can pick his or her brain about writing a kick-ass query letter. After the dismal - read non-existent - response to my attempts to sell two novels to agents, I need the help.

Third, I just want to have a good time.

It means leaving my husband and daughter for the day and getting up at a ridiculously early hour to drive, but I am looking forward to spending a day focused on writing.


A Long Season

This winter has been a long one. Between the snow and the cold, it almost feels like spring will never come. Yet already the days are getting longer and we are turning ahead the clocks tomorrow. No matter how long the season lasts, it always comes to an end eventually.

With a 4 month old, there is always something new. From changing sleeping habits to new motor skills, every day is filled with challenges and wonder. It has also meant little time or energy to write. Our daycare is out of the way. A lengthy commute to and from work means early starts and only a few moments to enjoy our daughter before it's her bed time. Right now most of our quality time comes during helping her get to sleep.

I just keep reminding myself that this season too will run it's course. I'm excited for the Crime Wave writing conference in April. That month will also mark the beginning rounds of editing on Wolf Creek.Slowly I am plugging away at re-writing Safe Word.

The sun is shining. I think it's time to get outside for some fresh air.


2015 Writing Resolution: Edit, Edit, Edit

2014 was a busy year. Determination and a need to be published kept me on track with my writing resolution. Now that 2015 has arrived, I've been thinking about a new writing resolution. This year will be the year of editing. Wolf Creek found a home and will be edited with the help of an editor. I actually printed out Safe Word so that I can edit it on the go.

I'm keeping a look out for registration for the Maine Crime Wave. It's the closed writing conference to me and had a great attendance last year with some fantastic authors.

What's your 2015 writing resolution?


Results of New Year's writing resolution

It's not quite the end of the year, but I'll take whatever time I can find to write a post. I've heard back from the last of my submissions for my New Year's resolution (write and submit 12 short stories) and have good news to share about Wolf Creek.

New stories written and submitted:

-Boson's Mate (steampunk erotica scifi) published in Valves and Vixens

-Bouillon de Bebe (horror short story) published in People Eating Peopl: A Cannibal Anthology

-Brainatarian (horror short story) to be published in Zombified II

-A Mother Knows (horror flash fiction) published in Coming Back

-Insatiable (erotic horror flash fiction) to be published in NECRONOMICUM: The Magazine of Weird Erotica

(due mid-February 2015)

-Great Mother Wolf (wolf flash fiction) published in Wolf Warriors

-Grieving Widower (scifi noire short story) rejected multiple times

-Another You (scifi horror short story) rejected

-Gold Song (weird west short story) rejected

-Chapter 7 of Mystery at the Blackhouse published in Ellsworth American

-Little Monster (horror short story) rejected

-No More Mangoes (horror flash fiction) didn't make the cut for the contest

-Paternity (horror flash fiction) made the voting round of the Horror in 100 words at

-Gra Mathair (Yates inspired poem) didn't win contest

Now for Wolf Creek. After over a dozen agent submissions and several publisher submissions, I finally got an acceptance. The tentative publication date is Sept. 2015, but that will depend on the editing process.

Lil' Miss Bean is starting to fuss, so I will end this post before meltdown.