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    A closeted black belt comes to terms with his bisexuality when he takes an openly gay student as his new sparring partner.

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    Wolf Creek: Gay Werewolf Romance
    by Nikko Lee, Digital Fiction

    Life as a gay omega werewolf is no fairytale.

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    People Eating People: A Cannibal Anthology
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    Between Love and Lust
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Research rabbit holes and procrastination

Procrastination takes many forms, from cleaning the house to relentless outlining. With my current non-fiction project about the history of my family farm, I've discovered another place for procrastination and anxiety to hide. Research.

Of course research is a valuable part of writing. For Safe Word, I had to research medical examiner protocols and police proceedures. With the farm history, I have so many resources to find out as much as I can about the initial land sales and lives of the people who built the farm. Some of my favorite finds are the surveyor notes from 1794 describing marking out the boundaries of the lots on which the farm was built.

There's land rights, general history of the times, old newspapers, lawyer's notes, and so many genealogy trees to detail.

All of this means that when I get a spare minute of two, I can do some digital digging. However, I have more than enough information to write a first draft. What I'm lacking is time. This morning's efforts to get up early to write were thwarted by a sick child who was up every 2 hours.

But there's also a nagging worry that I won't be able to produce a work that accurately documents almost 200 years of history and dozens of people's lives. Some I knew and so many other's are familiar to me by reading accounts of their comings and goings in the papers or listening to the few family stories passed on to me.

The only thing that overrides the fear of failure is the fear of not doing anything at all. So I press on, stealing moments here and there, hoping that before long I will have time to write.


Novel 101 and rejection

This past weekend I attended a Novel 101 presentation by Cynthia Thayer. I've attended her courses and talks before and really enjoy listening to her talk about the craft of writing. I never get bored of reviewing the basics. It's funny how understanding a concept if only one level; implementing it is another matter all together. I particularly liked the discussion about the crisis point.

Often when I start a book, I have in mind a character with a flaw or challenge that needs to be overcome so that they can move forward in their life. The whole first three-quarters of the book is all about leading up to that moment when they must make a decision or choice that at the beginning of the book they would have picked path A, but now after their newly gained experience they chose path B. It may be for the betterment of the character and their relationships or it might lead them down a road towards being the villain.

Because I write in multiple points of view (at least two for romances), each character has to have this challenge/crisis/change arc. I love forcing my characters to grow and overcome their flaws. But it has to be earned and hard. So hard that the reader doubts the character will overcome even if that's what the reader is rooting for.

With Safe Word, my main character Jacob is an egotistical, controlling man who feels that he must maintain control at all times. Control over himself, his relationship with his clients and the women he enters into BDSM relationships with. Because of his past experiences, he feels it's the only way he can ensure his partner's happiness. The novel gradually takes him on a journey to realize that he must surrender that control because it is an illusion.

About Safe Word... I was encouraged to get a full manuscript request. Alas, it was found to be lacking. I received the criticism that I expect and dread at the same time, that the writing is 'just not there'. There being a professional quality that would make the novel appealing to a mass market. The next day I received another rejection letter from an agent who I had given up on hearing anything positive back from.

These rejections both inspire the desire to quit and the desire to improve. Unfortunately, my time to write is extremely limited. I'm not sure if Safe Word is destined for the trunk or maybe in a few years when the kids are older I'll be able to devote the time needed to improve it.

Often I doubt my ability to write and my keyboard gets neglected. Then a character starts whispering in my ear 'write me'. I love the craft of writing, I just need a lot more practice and growth to get 'there'.


Writing resolutions for 2019

So I'm a little late the new year's writing resolutions. It's a good time to take stock and make goals for the coming year. Life is always so busy and it's easy to put writing on the back burner with a full time job, long commute and two small children. I've got so many writing projects on the go that I hope to complete or advance by the end of the year. It's going to take a small miracle and no end of determination.


  1. Set aside one hour a week to be out of the house working on writing.
  2. Attend an author talk, writing workshop or conference once a month.
  3. Re-write the sequel for Wolf Creek 2 and submit it.
  4. Publish Safe Word.
  5. Write a nonfiction history of the family farm and Knowlton family.
I've already missed one writing hour due to a sick kid, but I hope to make the time this week. Cynthia Thayer is giving a Novel 101 talk in Belfast this weekend, so I'm getting a jump on #2. Resolution #3 is my main focus for my one hour writing time. I'm not sure that will be enough time to get it in submission shape by the end of the year, but that's the time I've negotiated. I do have a full manuscript request on Safe Word, but if that doesn't pan out I may have to re-write the ending as a romance to open up another market for submissions.
The last resolution has been my research obsession for the last few weeks. I'm at the point where I need to bring the research together into a first draft while I wait on copyright permissions and a variety of contacts to get back to me.
What are your writing goals for 2019?



Writing romance in the age of #MeToo

My great-grandmothers used to exchange trashy romance novels. The dated covers and titles spoke of the two roles that women were relegated too in early romance novels. They were either pure-hearted virgins who needed a man to make awaken them sexually or scandalous harlots who needed a man to make an honest woman out of them.

I've been reading and writing romance and erotica for over twenty years now. While forbidden romance is always sexy, I'm glad to say goodbye to the two traditional roles for female characters and some horrible romance tropes.

These include:

  1. Women who are passive recipients for the sexual pleasures of men
  2. Men who force themselves on their supposed romantic interest because they cannot control their lust
Consent in romantic fiction is often implied. A good romance author will reveal to the reader the intents and desires of their characters on both - or multiple - sides of the romance. When done poorly, scenes that should be thrilling come off as creepy.
Someone said the only difference between a romance and a horror movie is the score. It's so true. So many romance films involve stalking, obsession and often unprompted displays of physical affection.
Fortunately, romance writing has evolved with the times. I find myself having characters state consent or ask for it explicitly. Done right, it adds to the tension of the scene.
What romance tropes are you ready to leave behind?

The wonderfully crappy first draft

November has come to an end and so has my first draft of Wolf Bane, the sequel to Wolf Creek. Despite limited writing time, pestering children and holiday preparations, I managed to eek out 50,000 words. Furthermore, I was able to get to the end of my outline. Add the 7500 words I had already written and I've got a good first draft.


Not exactly. Even while writing I could see the numerous plot holes, character inconsistencies, and scant descriptions. Andrea disappears for about a third of the novel. Everyone's romance is way too easy.

But that's the beauty of the first draft. It can be as horrible as it needs to be as long as I get to the end and have something to edit.

The next phase of writing will be to redo my outline - did I mention I added in a few POV's? Then rebuild it so that I've got a story that actually makes sense.

While writing, my brain was consumed with other potential novels and writing projects. December will be a break as real life takes over once again. In the New Year, I'm determined to set aside some time each week to write. Thanks to some writing partners I might actually get out of the house and write.